Learning to be a novice

I'v realized what force me to live and/or what make me full of spirit is from the words - "learning to be a novice". More I studied,  more less i felt I lack of.  I absorbed like a sponge, surfing on the internet - a very wide world, eg NLP /  BBS humon & body columnist / every stories in WIKI site's index page ..

I indeed realized so much time I wasted in the former wandered ages, I studied little in the past 8 years, I wasted so much time on unworthy "love", cyber games, wandering, hung out and ... keep isolated from the world for many years. So I almost don't know how to make up, never cost a little much on any skin care products, i don't know how to manage my bribes in an approprate way.  Keeping money in the bank,  drew out what I need,  that is all .

Every day , I enjoy "learning to be a novice" , and think in myself, wonder, confused, lost , and realize.  I try to keep the search result only in English-language webpages, and found a very, very, very wide world. And , suddenly, I think this lifestyle is okay for me - be alone. I think, it's for the home's sake. I live in my own house which I lived for nearly 23 years in sum up. Here, I enjoy being alone. But, as I wrote in my former blogs, the loniness just like a monster ate my spirit, beat my heart ... when I was in ShenZhen, alone.  For the all happened, I really realized, HOME is irreplacable absolutely.  Nobody will take the role of mom for their children.

In 2010, I will do what's in my mind, which will be not just only in mind, I need to let it become real things. If I want to do something, I need to do as soon as I can. If I think I need to do anything, I MUST let it happen.  That is "power of execution". Like people have to learn how to manage their life, their time, and also, their money.

It's always interesting to be a man who are always  learning to be a novice.  And, another words - "Welcome to the real world, it suck, but you gonna love it"