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Try to stuff my faculties with satisfied work, working with friendly mates, reading worthy books, watching great movies, learning what I deeply interest ,is the only way spreading in front of me that I really enjoy and ready to take. I've heard about this kinda theory of how to improve self confidence. It said, even you don't want to stuck in pain or grief, you must face it, you must live through it. That's is what I learned from reality several months before.

Again, I appreciate for the unbearable period of time then, eventually, I came through, I made myself stronger in heart. Anyway, I got to know the real definition of strong. Never use other way or exercise like listening to the music, hanging out with friend or any guy, nor dancing nor shopping, just face what tense your throat and make your stomach suck, try to go to deep sleep, and when you open your eyes after a tolerate night, you'll find 'tomorrow is another day' is a broadly -agreed truth.

Even now, the recall will still make me feel suck, I can come over it over and over, times after times, how can I say? It's my fate to be required and somehow obliged. I still got an hope with that jerk's horrible and grieved end. What a jerk I've ever met. Nobody will exceed in my opinion, I've never met with this kinda of self-aggrandizing man, a definite liar, a really jerk, a disguising scum. I will never believe this sort of 'thing' can end with happiness, to hell with him, accept my curse !